Friday, January 27, 2006

the real world sucks

I know it isn't a monumental discovery but yes, the real world does suck. I guess I had high hopes that as soon as I got out of school I would be off doing great things and have lots of stuff to talk to my friends about but sadly that is not the case. I'm living in Chicago and I hardly ever go out on the weekends. It makes me feel so old. I was driving home from work tonight at 11 and was passing lots of bars on Lincoln. I saw all these people waiting in lines to get in and everyone was dressed up for a night on the town and all I could think of was that I wished I was with them. I feel like if I'm living in Chicago and missing out on all the fun. It really makes me miss Stevens Point as crazy as that sounds. But at the same time I'm afraid to go back. I want to go so I can visit people but I feel like I don't have enough good things to say about what I'm doing to merit a visit. I also worry about certain people having the need to avoid me while I'm there and I hate that I cause that reaction. Oh well, I can't make everyone like me.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

wouldn't it be nice to know what the end was while your in the middle?

So, for the most part the life I lead is very boring and filled with mundane things but every once in a while a conversation gets started that makes you think. What could have happened if things were different? What is going to happen in the future? I seem to have these thoughts a lot when I think of certain men in my life. If I hadn't moved to Vermont when I was 11 would Jason and I be in a relationship or would we have stayed the way we are now, in a perpetual state of sexual tension? And why the hell am I still thinking about Craig? I wish I could just forget about men completely. Now in case you happened to have watched The Bachelor earlier this week, I don't mean to say that I want to go into a nunnery or that I hate men. I just wish I could stop thinking like I do. Anyway, I hope this will be my last rant on men for awhile. I know how you all must love hearing this from me. Once again, I appoligize for my topic today, I just needed to write out some of my thoughts.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

the calm after the storm

So New Years is over and things are getting pretty boring around here. I spend my time at work counting down the minutes until I am out of there and suprisingly I don't get interupted that much in my counting. Today was the day of the crazies. I swear almost every guest I dealt with today had "issues". One lady was litterally talking to herslef (which she hadn't done when I checked her in) and she told me that god was confused and I need to let him know that I think he's doing a good job. Then she proceeded to tell me that she created everyone and everything in the room. WACKO!!! I had to try really hard not to laugh because I couldn't believe what I was dealing with. There were other nuts today but nothing compared to this one lady. So I'm going to try and relax and prepare myself for another day at the nut house.